After a grand change... now the feeling has transitioned to restlessness. It’s tough to explain in words how it feels. It's certainly not about the "C" word. I have accepted the fact very well... It was not that difficult thanks to my “would be”. We are settling now after long and meaningful/nonsense discussions... So the fact remains the same... Why restlessness???
I wake up in middle of night... as if I never slept... then will be totally blank... Will try and sleep again... This happens quite often now... and to some extent I get irritated. It’s very hectic in office, cuz of 2 releases round the corner. Thankfully things are shaping well, and team is responding in a phenomenal spirit. I guess this year will be the most happening for me... Have been pretty close to the team and worked hard with them and now I am seeing great results. So from that front am definitely at ease. So that cannot be the reason of my restlessness.
Market is going haywire, but I know what exactly I am doing and the kind of value am adding to the business... so that’s not the concern at all. All am thinking about is taking our products to the next level. There is nothing more I can ask for from the professional life... may be more money... ;) Ok on serious note... I am learning, taking more responsibility from delivery standpoint. Reaching more to the business, Reading more articles, doing more critical things from technical standpoint... So my professional life cannot be the reason again.
So for now, I have decided I won’t be thinking about things consciously. I feel it’s just a phase and shall subside... Hope that things settle down fast.