Thursday, January 31, 2008
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Usually am very patient in explaining things but sometimes when the other person is talking some crap and not even ready to listen that’s one situation I get impatient and might get abrasive. So I will categorize this act of mine under provokingly abrasive.
In a different scenario, when someone is inquisitive about my current work and remuneration or my future plans or my dreams I tend to be very true. Am very aggressive and I wanna set high standards for myself. I know not everyone is like that, and if I share those thoughts with them they will look down on themselves or they shall feel am in air. I don’t care if someone thinks am in air, cuz that’s not true. If someone looks down on himself it’s his/her problem and that person have to deal with it. Well I also feel that sometimes my idea of motivating results as a negative impact as people might take it as a lot of expectation may be cuz they lack belief in themselves. I shall categorize this act as casually rough, what I can do to prevent some ugly situation is while expressing my ideas I should be very careful about the person am talking to.
Major problem with my attitude is I speak my mind whether I talk to a stranger or a friend. I believe sometimes one has to be very polished. What best i can do is I shall try to be more careful when I express my views over any subject in public.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Ok back to Trip, I was very excited for the whole visit as I was supposed to meet my sis, cousins and some family friends. It turned out to be an eye opener for me and got to know many things about myself. Some of them were, "Have changed a lot...", "Am arrogant...", "I can demoralize people", "I can give complex to people...", "I still hate people who believe in pomp 'n' show", "I still cant acclimatize to a noisy event". I would require separate posts to cover each one of it, would try to do it as soon as I can.
I spent bulk of the time with my sister and had long discussion over marriage and future. I am glad that am so close to my sister and have gone through so much that can at least help someone. Well my sister has seen a lot of world I guess but still there are topics which need different perspective/angle.
I love the relation we share and hope that it remains forever.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Pattern of my life is pretty obvious now; I dun get one problem at a time. It’s like attending to innumerable problems in one go and none of them will have margin to err. I can’t crib about those situations as I end up learning the most from them. I have to fight with pain, anguish, anxiety, restlessness, irritation and few more reactive measures which most of the times add up to the problem.
There are some situations of my life which keeps on repeating and I hate them for sure. Whenever I badly need something or I am short of something in my personal life I will be getting that in abundance suddenly but for a period and that shall vanish leaving some pretty moments and memory. I don’t know relating everything with past is the smartest thing or not, but it’s quite natural for anyone to do and I am no different. So it gets confusing for me in that period, I have to take a call on whether to hold that moment or fight hard and make the pattern change.
I have a huge circle but I am a miser when it comes to spend my precious time with someone. I will always prefer to be alone and do something that I want rather than going out for a party. And if I m with my love I will still prefer to be at a quiet place and talk rather than being at a loud public place. Ummm I m ignoring the shopping time which I simply enjoy :0).
I have no boundaries of love at all; I tend to give everything I have which is gradual process for sure. I know that’s not wise at all but it’s too tough to handle. Another pain area is my eyes, my touch and my love I read things every time I am with a person. Most of the times I m on the right page, but that’s too scary for the person to take. I keeping the confidence on my mind reading ability, start talking about it to other person. And yeah not pressurizing that person to share it, yet make the person listen it. Sometime it might be a fair thing to do taking into consideration that person is very understanding. For others it’s an abnormal behavior.
Not that all my actions are dependent on sun signs, but I do analyze things on those lines as well. Problem with Saggi’s are they do and say what’s their in their heart, and sadly heart (read feeling) is most of the times very illogical. That’s one reason they can be taken in a wrong sense without much effort.
I am passing through the same phase again, and I feel am happily confused!!!
Morning of 3rd was absolutely awful, my hr came and told that one of my teammate was found lying unconscious on road by another employee of our company (Anitha and Bassu). I was really anxious about it; cuz that guy is diabetic and had already collapsed in office once. I called up Anitha and she was finding really hard to control the guy cuz he was having convulsion. They took him to another hospital where he was given drip. And slowly he was back to consciousness.
I can’t really express how many prayers I would have done until I saw him in sense although I was so furious at that guy who is so reckless. It’s very unfortunate that people can’t really respect the value of their life. I just hope sanity prevails and he takes care of himself in future. But nothing can be taken away from those two angels in disguise.
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Although it took 2 days and lot of phone calls to Chennai/Bangalore to get back the mobile but still it was a very professional response which I never expected.
At least this whole episode brought some faith in the system.